He blinked rapidly trying to rid his irritated left eye of the rapidly expanding red meter.
His therapist didn’t believe him. Nobody ever does. He regretted even making the appointment.
His therapist sat there, tapping her cleft chin with her designer pen.
He wanted to stand up right there and leave the room. The display in his eyes- something akin to a power meter in a role playing game- in the corner of his eyes was blinking fast. The word warning started to appear in bold white letters whilst the room was starting to light up like a Soviet submarine.
“You see things…” His therapist inquired.
“Yes,” He replied.
“You see a meter that reads your stress levels.”
“Something like that.”
She was questioning him like he was crazy. Maybe he was crazy. But he paid her hourly to make him feel better about himself. Like a whole person. Not to judge him with her eyes.
He sat forward from his sofa with the intention to leave.
“You leaving?” She asked.
“No,” He fibbed.
“Please don’t leave.”
“Okay,” He laid back on the sofa.
His stress meter was full to capacity. The blinking lights ceased and steadied. The room was a steady red. His muscles felt like wet sandbags.
“Still see it?” His therapist asked.
He sank in his seat. “That’s correct.”
“And this is a result of a head injury,” His therapist asked.
“A concussion,” He added.
“And how did you get this concussion?”
“I tripped… Trying to fix a light bulb.”
I tried to hang myself and the rope snapped and I hit my head.
His therapist wrote something in her notebook.
“What are you writing?” He asked.
His therapist lifted her head from her notebook. “How do you feel about these, visions?”
He shrugged. “I don’t know.”
His therapist stared at him in silence.
He asked. “You don’t believe me.”
“I believe you,” His therapist replied. “These visions could be a good thing.”
“The ability to see your negative feelings rise. Like, a pressure gauge on a steam pipe.”
Wow… She wasn’t judging him. He was just being paranoid as usual. Relief.
“Never thought of it that way,” He said.
The room faded to normal colors as his red gauge slowly declined. The bold warning letters disappeared and was replaced by a more subtle critical which rested at the bottom corner of his eye.
“This meter can be helpful to you,” His therapist reached over and touched his hand. “Feelings are harder to ignore when they’re visualized right in front of you.”
He smiled. “You’re right.”
His stress meter dropped to zero and within seconds, his one full blood red bar was now half-filled with a neon green.
“Thank you doc,” He said.
“We’re glad to help,” His therapist replied. “Take care.”
He grabbed his coat and opened the door.
A nagging thought prevented him from leaving. Her parting words…
“Yes?” His therapist asked.
“You said we’re glad…” He said. “Who is we?”